Dear Reader,
When I first started this blog less than a month ago, I tried to make a post every single day. Not that I had any followers or any party that was expressly interested in what I had to say, but because committing a part of myself to this blog was something that made me feel a little more productive in these last couple of summer months. But with the fall semester starting soon and me starting a new internship, writing posts will continue to prove more difficult as the weeks go by. That being said, I’m making a promise to myself here and now to still post something, whether it be short or lengthy, when I have the time and inspiration to do so.
[Insert terrible segue] If I could, I would spend more time on this blog writing short stories of some sort. There isn’t much stopping me from doing so but my own inability to concentrate on a piece of writing long enough without getting overly frustrated. And unfortunately, the inspiration to write is a very fleeting feeling for me as it always springs up from inside at the most inopportune times, and dissipates by the time I can actually sit down to write. What’s even more unfortunate for me is the same fleeting inspiration to make a piece of art, whether it be sketching or painting or making shapes on my computer at random (that last one being a joke). Not only do I lack the motivation to do it at the right times, but I’m a bit of a defeatist about the whole issue. Sometimes I am just unable to get past the feeling of not being a good enough artist in comparison to the millions of better artists out there in the world with more natural talent than I could ever hope to possess. (And before anyone starts thinking that I’m fishing for compliments, I’m really not. I can remember quite clearly all of the times I failed at anything art related when I was younger and had to be bailed out with the help of either my father or my sister.)